Evelyne ‘Dreaming is my life’

What if you can create your life just dreaming about it? This is what Evelyne explained to me together with the value of healing, reconnecting with our inner-child, being compassionate with our self and develop the ability to listen to our intuition.

She arrived at my home at a time when I was feeling very vulnerable, wishing I could withdraw into myself to heal my wound. Despite that she came, on a cold autumnal day, completely soaked by the rain, hidden in a black jacket through which was visible just a big smile.

Respectful of my pain Evelyne adapted herself to our life, becoming as invisible. We met only on the last day of her stay, while I was cooking lunch holding my daughter on my lap. We didn’t talk for long but a few minutes were enough for her words to touch my heart and suspend my breath:

‘ You need to take care of the blocks you are carrying inside before you can manifest your dreams.’

Why was I creating such challenging experiences? I immediately felt that I wanted to get rid of that heavy blanket and open up to life.

A few days later we were talking at the table of my living room, with the light of the sun shining through the window, a cup of tea and my recorder.

Evelyne told me that she ‘builds her life day by day’ following her intuition. Apart from appointments with her clients and her children’s needs, she has the freedom to do what she feels like. She works as a counsellor[1] mainly online and it gives her the opportunity to travel. While she was describing how her life emerges she took a pause and, watching at me, she said with her French accent:

‘My life is beautiful I think’.

This statement made me realise the strength of this person: I haven’t often happened to talk with someone able to honestly express something like that.

Like other people I had interviewed before, her life has not always been like this: from the way Evelyne has described her past I understood that she felt trapped in a rigid structure and that she had to choose to change. Her transformation has developed over several years thanks to many experiences like therapy, yoga, and meditation, reaching its peak when she arrived to the Findhorn Community. In this place Eevelyne has had the possibility to reconnect with her ‘inner child’ and with her dreams.

As a consequence she divorced, changed her job and she started to dream; and she has never stopped dreaming since then. In fact she has told me:

Her voice became very deep and I could perceive the confidence she has. She explained that sometimes she just takes some time to ask herself:

‘How would my dream life be? If my life was a film what kind of film would it be? And then let my mind dream… And I really trust that everything is possible; and I do trust my dreams! […] I very often think I can do what I feel to do.’

Her dreams become true without too much effort. With a big smile she told me that when she connects with ‘my child’ it is as if she allows herself to be like a young girl; she has fun dancing and singing, and she tries not to take anything too seriously.

‘I have read a lot: Eckard Toll, Eileen Caddy, Osho, H&S Stone, B Hellingly ... and I trust what they say. Everything is a vibration, everything that exists. It took me a while to really picture that, but really I have the feeling that every moment could be different, that there are different possibilities: that is a possibility, that is another, that is another.... I can decide which possibility I choose. It depends on where I choose to focus: I can choose my possibility, but in the unconscious all the others still exist. If I trust that all is wrong, that life is difficult, that I’m a poor being…. This is the way I choose my possibility. If I think everything is ok, everything is just a game, then I choose a ‘playing’ one. I choose to start the day singing and meditating and then the rest comes to me and I just enjoy it!’

Evelyne told me that beside developing what I would call ‘the art of dreaming’ it is also important to heal our-self and understand the frame through which we look at the world:

‘What are you conscious about? If I look at my grandfather with compassion, he was a human being dealing with very difficult choices, he did his best, and thank you grandfather, life came through you to me!… that is a frame of consciousness. It is a different way to be aware that is going to create a different reality. This is what the therapy gave to me. How I decide to turn my spirit. It is a picture, the way I picture the world…’

Evelyn pointed out that even when she has a conflict and she feels attacked she can try to create opposition to it or to accept her own reaction of fear and stay calm and say:

‘yes, I’m really sorry… you are right’

She explained that she does her best to stay calm, even if it can be challenging, knowing that everyone is carrying his or her own baggage and that we are mirroring each other:

‘ It is never just about myself. And a good way to deactivate conflicts is to say ‘yes, you are right’. For everything ‘yes, you are right’ and listen.’

Almost as if she was telling me a joke she remembered when her therapist used to call her a liar and she couldn’t understand why. Only now she can see that he was right:

‘I was only trying to appear as someone different from myself. And it took me years and years to allow myself to be.’

With a very sweet voice she started to talk to herself or maybe to her ‘inner child’ saying:

‘Even now I’m accepting who I am, and it is ok, I’m this and that and it is ok..’

At this point I was curious to understand how she moves in her life and how she tunes into herself. She said that meditation is a good practice and that in the past she used to play the Transformation Game to develop her intuition. Now she feels a strength within herself that she is happy to follow. Sometimes it is almost unconscious, other times she uses the Voice Dialogue, talking to herself and imagining different parts of herself. Evelyne takes the time to tune into herself and then she let things emerge, following and trusting them.

‘I have a very big house because together with my ex partner we had 7 children. At the moment it is a workshop centre and I haven’t done anything for it to happen, I have just dreamt, and it happened. At the moment there is a workshop there and I’m here in Findhorn.’

And then she confessed to me with a big smile that she has a good ‘genie of the lamp’ that she can call on in order to ask what is going on and change what is not working:

‘ Do you remember when I arrived here? I was completely soaked, it was cold… then I stopped and I called my genie of the lamp and I told him: ‘ehi, you know that this is not the way, don’t you?’ And the following day the sun came back. In other words I play! I don’t know what it is but when I believe that when I’m in harmony with everything else, I’m much more powerful than what I think. With the weather, parking for the car, I ask!’

Going back to talking about the Findhorn Community, Evelyne told me that thanks to this place she changed her mind about feeling safe. After 20 years of being in contact with this place, she rarely feels unsafe or in danger thanks to the strong sense of what she has within herself:

‘I’m part of the whole and there is no danger. Danger is an illusion of the mind.’

Despite that, Evelyne admitted that it is not always easy and that her mind is sometime challenged by fear. When it happens she tries to welcome, play and explore it.

‘I happen to go back to my old mental patterns and I cry… and then I take care of myself with compassion.’

Evelyn showed the same confidence when we started to talk about money:

‘I’m not worried about money, I have experienced that when I’m clear about what I want, money comes. I have had many, many experiences that there is nothing to be worried about in relation to money.’

And she has a lot to say about this topic. She started to work on it because of the end of a relationship created in her a sense of vulnerability. So, Evelyne understood that she needed to work on her sense of confidence. For this reason she has worked on two areas strictly connected: sexuality and money. After studying and deepening the mechanism behind money, she started to dream about creating a new currency. And this dream became real two years ago when she met a group of people that, in the area where she lives, was starting to work on the same idea[2].

For Evelyn Findhorn is now a place where she can charge herself, spend some time in silence, meditate and connect with herself to see what needs to emerge. The fact that she can periodically spend some time in the Community gives her the possibility to see the reality where she usually lives from a different perspective and when she goes back to France she can think about Findhorn and what she experienced there. In this way it is easier for her to keep on dreaming.

Before we closed our interview I asked Evelyne if she wished to say anything to those who will read this. She told me the story of a man who is helping people to open up to others teaching how to hug saying ‘you are important to me’ holding direct eye contact. There is nothing else to say:

‘I don’t want to give any advice. This is the way I’m increasingly doing things: I’m with people, whoever they are, whatever they are. I simply am with them.’

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[1] Evelyne works with Voice Dialogue, Family Constellations ans Erikson Hypnosis.

[2] Evelyne is part of the group that has crated the Ğ1, a virtual currency that is gifted to each member to be freely swapped. To know more about it: https://duniter.org/en/